Mama

Today was my first official mothers day, and I was thinking about what it means to be a mother. The first word that comes to my mind is Nurture. I can only hope that I can provide Kade with the drive to live life to its fullest. I can only pray to be capable of providing him a solid foundation to jump from when he's ready. As I go through the days, sometimes I feel like I'm not doing what I should be; my house is often more of a mess than I'd like, we sleep in some days, and I plead guilty to putting Kade in his jumper in front of a movie to have two seconds of me time. I get so frustrated with myself, because he deserves nothing but the best. I often have to remind myself that everyone has a different way of parenting and that this is mine and I have to embrace it and grow with it. I am not the cookie cutter mother. I don't always go by the books, and sometimes Kade is in his pajamas until noon. But he's happy and he is fed and he's comfortable. I have to remind myself: That is all that really matters.

For me, a mother is a friend: someone to count on, call and spend many days of laughter with. I hope Kade will see me as a mentor. I'm so looking forward to many days of adventures with my beautiful little prince. This has been the most amazing experience, and I can't wait to see what he has to teach me next.